I am tired. Physically tired, yes. But also mentally. I want to curl up and sleep, far away from the noise and bustle of this busy, busy world. I want to forget my problems. And other people's problems too, which always weigh on my mind too much. To stop worrying about things that will never change. I want to cocoon myself in quiet and solitude, and make small things of beauty and large things that take time, and not speak...and sleep and sleep some more. Not forever. For a little while. But I'm a mother, a wife, a friend. I have people who need me. How can I find the balance?
Art imitates life. Nasturtium leaf pendant.
Just a pyrographic doodle...because the disk cracked when I put the second hole in it, so it became a practice piece and I could just play.
I think you are wise and creative to look to nature for lessons on balance. I hope you are able to find it or at least find comfort in your art and in the kind ears of friends and family.
ReplyDeleteI often wonder, and especially and presently for you, why they don't make giant cradles for adults. A five minute rocking-reprieve would do a body good. Bless you.
ReplyDeleteI can fully empathsise with what you have said right now, things can get so overwhelming - I wish things could slow down enough to take a breath and come down from the constant edge of panic!
ReplyDeleteI particularly love the second pyrographic disk, I just love it, especially against the bark.
Keep well
Carrie...
You know that metaphor- if you are traveling on a airplane with a child, put the oxygen mask on yourself first, THEN on your child - I love that, how can we be supportive to others if we are dragging - and if we can't breathe, how can we help our children? But, I hear you, we're not set up in our world to rest and retreat.... its hard to find that balance. Good luck with that....
ReplyDeleteI'm imagining you taking a week, or even a half week to go to a nourishing little cabin in the woods, alone, with journals and artwork and great books. Amazing, healthy food dropped at your door in the morning, long walks and dreaming in a hammock..... long and comfortable sleep....
oohhh- I want to go to to cabin too or swing in an adult cradle- dont feel guilty for feeding the well, because nothing can go out, unless someting comes in.
ReplyDeletethese pieces are so beautiful. i hope you find some of that quiet and solitude for yourself..even if just a little to refresh and renew..xx
ReplyDeleteThe nasturtium leave looks fantastic. It is lovely. Great work !!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful lovely work!
ReplyDeleteI can totally relate to what you're saying...I hope you can find some peace and rest for a while...take care! :)
Dear Christina, me too, me too, there is something in creative souls i am finding that makes emotions & feelings run so deep, that all thaqt can mend us is a some space. I do so hope you can take some "you" time, time for quiet thoughts & calmness & peace. I do love what Valerianna said about the oxygeon mask, so true, but not always easy to remember. thinking of you and sending a huge hug x x wish you had wings & could fly over & nest in our wee cottage for as long as it took. x
ReplyDeleteListen to Valerianna! If you can't go way, tell your family that you need a home holiday and are invisible for the next few days. If all else fails, maybe you need antidepressants?
ReplyDeleteCenya