Just a quick post to thank everyone for the beautiful comments. If anyone has taken comfort or found understanding for a friend or loved one through my words, then I am so very happy for that is why I write.
Today I went over to a friend's house to do a simple meditation, just sitting back and relaxing and listening to a CD of words and music. At one point, the guide on the CD asked us to think of all the things that we are blessed with in our lives. And I thought of my beautiful girls. Yes, I should have three little girls...but I have two here with me to fill up my heart with love...and fill up my life with chaos and laughter (and the odd tantrum), and Hannah Montana posters (aaarrgh!) and refusals to eat cooked carrots (although oddly, tinned ones are fine), and a fringe that I am absolutely NOT allowed to trim (I've threatened to sneak in and cut it when she's asleep!), and half eaten biscuits under the beds along with dirty socks (always odd ones), and soggy dolls in the bathroom (and something that left a bright pink stain on the white grout)......and hugs and cries of "you're the best mummy in the world!", and impromptu interpretive dance performances (usually at bedtime) and singing loudly while climbing trees in the front yard, and two note recorder playing, and "I have to be a monkey for today's assembly item!", and "I don't have any clean knickers (have you looked in your drawer?)", and homemade Mothers' Day Cards with enough glitter to make Tinkerbelle sneeze.........well, you get the picture! Life is full to bursting, and my precious little ones are growing so quickly it makes my head spin sometimes. But they are my blessings, and so you see, I am blessed indeed. There is a Morgan sized hole in my life, but how can I be sad for long, when I have faeries such as these shining like rainbows in my garden?!